Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in awewamber's LiveJournal:

Thursday, March 30th, 2006
9:20 pm	i keep zoneing out... i leave tommorow, for about a week & a few days.it hasnt really hit me that im leaveing for that long though.i dont have one thing packed.it probably wont hit me until saturday morning when i wake up, not in my room.i cant fucking wait to leave, yet its still kind of sad.ill miss my friends & what not.but it just fucking hurts knowing that even though you miss someone so fucking bad, and they dont really care that your gone, or atleast thats how you feel.its just fucked up how people can just act like that, just mess with peoples feelings like its nothing.i have so much to do before i go.but ill probably end up packing all of my stuff in the morning.not really much else to say... Current Mood: blah Current Music: brand new (Comment on this)
Monday, March 27th, 2006
3:50 pm	.the past few days. whats going on lately?everyone seems to be drifting.i leave for florida in 4 days, and its weird, but im kind of glad.ill get away from all of the shit here.but its kind of sad, because i will miss those people that i do still hangout with, that are my friends. Current Mood: tired (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
4:05 pm	real friends=love. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 28th, 2006
9:46 pm	--last/future entrys-- ive said this before, but its ok. i dont write entrys to get sympathy, i write what/how i feel. just so everyone knows that. that sounds mean, but if you know me, you know what i mean. (Comment on this)
Monday, January 30th, 2006
10:20 pm	yay... i just realized today that my favorite colors are purple & silver. aw yay. & today was krystinas b-day & we captured her. yay. fun. <3. Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: Brand New (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 24th, 2006
10:00 pm	--...this is one more day on the verge of tears...-- i've written more to the paper, but not sure if im done. i listen to a lot of music, and some of it makes me cry, but a good cry, reminding me of him, and our memories, but some isnt such a good cry. i dont think that im finished yet, i dont even know if its even begun to be started. fuck. this fucking sucks. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: sad yahoo! music videos (Comment on this)
Monday, January 23rd, 2006
3:38 pm	blah... im not sure if im done writing this paper i started today, or if i even want to post it. im not sure what the point of it is... possibly that i just need to write shit out before this gets any worse. maybe its because i miss him terribly, and dont know what the fuck to do... could it be that im emotionally unstable to? i think that when i get home from work, ill write more...possibly post this paper, that i dont know if i should... <3. Current Mood: --very Current Music: Relient K--Who I am hates who I've been... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 5th, 2005
3:46 pm	him...... all i can think about is him. all i hear is him. all i see is him. EVERYTHING reminds me of him. this is way too fucking hard, not being able to see him. i can't keep going on not being able to see him, or talk to him. its too fucking hard. i just simply can't do it. i just sit around doing whatever it is that im doing, trying to concentrate, but all that i can think about is him. i litreally cry myself to sleep every single night, because of the pain i have from missing him so much. his moms a bitch. she told me where he is, and that we cant write him, or talk to him. hopefully he remembers me when he gets out?! i guess we'll have to just wait and see........ fuck. i hate this. im not a total weird-o, or some obsessive creep, just heart-broken? possibly. this wasnt intended for sympathy, just had to get it out. Current Music: one of 'his' cds... (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 16th, 2005
9:19 pm	?<3? im really confused...like with life & feelings & all that stuff... like i dont know, damnit. theres a point to this, i just dont know what it is. fuck. Current Mood: confused Current Music: uh, <333Hawthorne Heights<333 thats stuck in my head. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 13th, 2005
6:57 pm	"Real Fact" #121--The only bird that can swin but not fly is the penguin. so today totally sucked shma. i got told how much of a piece of shit i am...& how everyone hates me... which totally brightened my fucking day...thanks!!! i guess it was ever since last nite, i got all "emo" feeling, & stuff. & i guess it felt that it needed to carry on into today.?. which sucks. & im still effing grounded, so i cant go do anything to cure this "emo-ness", i havent been to the mall since like... ahh i cant even remember the last time i was at the mall...depressing, & im like failing @ school... which also effing sucks. i went shopping with my mom after school tho, i guess that was ok. got some stuff, & this guy commented on how AWESOME my pervert sticker on my phone is, so that was nifty. & i found out that i dont have to work on sunday, because were closed er somethin..so thats good i guess. hmm...i guess im done bitching about how shitty my life is yo!!! Current Mood: depressed Current Music: the washing machiene doing what it does best.washing clothes (9 Comments |Comment on this)