urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:awewamber awewamber awewamber 2006-03-31T02:31:22Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:awewamber:3397 2006-03-31T02:31:22Z 2006-03-31T02:31:22Z brand new i leave tommorow, for about a week & a few days.it hasnt really hit me that im leaveing for that long though.i dont have one thing packed.it probably wont hit me until saturday morning when i wake up, not in my room.i cant fucking wait to leave, yet its still kind of sad.ill miss my friends & what not.but it just fucking hurts knowing that even though you miss someone so fucking bad, and they dont really care that your gone, or atleast thats how you feel.its just fucked up how people can just act like that, just mess with peoples feelings like its nothing.i have so much to do before i go.but ill probably end up packing all of my stuff in the morning.not really much else to say... urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:awewamber:3307 2006-03-27T20:55:08Z 2006-03-27T20:55:48Z whats going on lately?everyone seems to be drifting.i leave for florida in 4 days, and its weird, but im kind of glad.ill get away from all of the shit here.but its kind of sad, because i will miss those people that i do still hangout with, that are my friends. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:awewamber:2941 2006-03-09T21:06:28Z 2006-03-09T21:06:28Z real friends=love. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:awewamber:2622 2006-03-01T02:52:39Z 2006-03-01T02:52:39Z ive said this before, but its ok. i dont write entrys to get sympathy, i write what/how i feel. just so everyone knows that. that sounds mean, but if you know me, you know what i mean. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:awewamber:1595 2006-01-31T03:34:36Z 2006-01-31T03:34:36Z Brand New i just realized today that my favorite colors are purple & silver. aw yay. & today was krystinas b-day & we captured her. yay. fun. <br />&lt;3. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:awewamber:1472 2006-01-25T03:28:22Z 2006-01-25T03:28:22Z sad yahoo! music videos i've written more to the paper, but not sure if im done. i listen to a lot of music, and some of it makes me cry, but a good cry, reminding me of him, and our memories, but some isnt such a good cry. i dont think that im finished yet, i dont even know if its even begun to be started. fuck. this fucking sucks. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:awewamber:1258 2006-01-23T20:47:50Z 2006-01-23T20:47:50Z Relient K--Who I am hates who I've been... im not sure if im done writing this paper i started today, or if i even want to post it. im not sure what the point of it is... possibly that i just need to write shit out before this gets any worse. maybe its because i miss him terribly, and dont know what the fuck to do... could it be that im emotionally unstable to? i think that when i get home from work, ill write more...possibly post this paper, that i dont know if i should...<br />&lt;3. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:awewamber:959 2005-12-05T20:57:18Z 2005-12-05T20:57:18Z one of 'his' cds... all i can think about is him.<br />all i hear is him.<br />all i see is him. <br />EVERYTHING reminds me of him.<br />this is way too fucking hard, not being able to see him.<br />i can't keep going on not being able to see him, or talk to him.<br />its too fucking hard.<br />i just simply can't do it.<br />i just sit around doing whatever it is that im doing, trying to concentrate, but all that i can think about is him. <br />i litreally cry myself to sleep every single night, because of the pain i have from missing him so much.<br />his moms a bitch.<br />she told me where he is, and that we cant write him, or talk to him.<br />hopefully he remembers me when he gets out?!<br />i guess we'll have to just wait and see........<br />fuck. i hate this.<br /><br />im not a total weird-o, or some obsessive creep, just heart-broken? possibly.<br />this wasnt intended for sympathy, just had to get it out. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:awewamber:767 2005-10-17T01:45:55Z 2005-10-17T01:45:55Z uh, <333Hawthorne Heights<333 thats stuck in my head. im really confused...like with life & feelings & all that stuff... like i dont know, damnit. theres a point to this, i just dont know what it is. fuck. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:awewamber:501 2005-10-13T23:12:17Z 2005-10-13T23:12:17Z the washing machiene doing what it does best.washing clothes so today totally sucked shma. i got told how much of a piece of shit i am...& how everyone hates me... which totally brightened my fucking day...thanks!!! i guess it was ever since last nite, i got all "emo" feeling, & stuff. & i guess it felt that it needed to carry on into today.?. which sucks. & im still effing grounded, so i cant go do anything to cure this "emo-ness", i havent been to the mall since like... ahh i cant even remember the last time i was at the mall...depressing, & im like failing @ school... which also effing sucks. i went shopping with my mom after school tho, i guess that was ok. got some stuff, & this guy commented on how AWESOME my pervert sticker on my phone is, so that was nifty. & i found out that i dont have to work on sunday, because were closed er somethin..so thats good i guess. hmm...i guess im done bitching about how shitty my life is yo!!!